A hint. My new book will have Sacred in its title. Yes, I’ve started on the book. I’ve also been distracted by small stuff my anxiety turned into bigger stuff. I found out a friend who was in the first chapter of my memoir “From Agoraphobia to Zen” Linda, passed away twelve years ago. It jarred me for many reasons not the least being I portrayed her in her truth at the time and now I can’t explain to her why I needed to do that. She had been forgiven a long time ago but since I had lost track of her, I felt she was still on the planet if only because a fortune-teller had told her in my presence she would have a long life. This got me thinking of other people who had inhabited my life and one in particular who will be in my next book. I am still too raw to write about Linda, but this is dedicated to her memory
Sacred and Profane
demons call my name
I awake with a start
fragments of a broken heart
was it so long ago
I don’t even know
when our bodies entwined
when I called you mine
I, naked and sacred
You, profane in your blame
You went for the vein
A sad refrain
much blood was shed
and then I fled
to start again
I found my soul
filled up the holes
in a book of truth
never aloof
Now, Sacred is my name
stigma the profane
And I fight for the rights
of those without light
and I’ll never again
Idolize men
Marilyn it is amazing what happens to a writer. Every time I write a book I loose someone who was in my life and affected my journey. I end up dedicating each book to someone I’ve just lost but I keep on writing. It just happened again this week. I haven’t written at all this week but now I’m getting ready to finish what I started.
By: Janice N. Richards on August 29, 2012
at 9:25 am
Yes, writing about your past can affect your present life. I am almost sure that writing that chapter helped me to heal, so in that way Linda helped me. Good luck Janice warm aloha
By: marilynmendoza on August 29, 2012
at 2:28 pm
I really loved this poem Marilyn, hope you are happy and well.
Lorraine xx
By: lorraine on August 30, 2012
at 3:02 pm
Thank you Lorraine.
I’m having a hiccup but it’s passing and I am excited to start on the new book Hope you and family are fine Warm aloha
By: marilynmendoza on August 30, 2012
at 10:28 pm